I was literally dying. My health started to suffer as a result of my frantic lifestyle. My friends were completely oblivious to the physical signs of substance abuse, and I began to wonder if they cared for me at all. I lost around twenty pounds in a relatively short time, and very often, I had deep, dark bags under my eyes...
LISTEN TO AUDIO VERSION OF STORY: [audio m4a="https://insponation.org/wp-content/uploads/2020/05/S-Market-St.m4a"][/audio] It's hard to get over a fear of the dark, when your monsters were real. I'm a survivor. I was raped repeatedly for several years of my childhood. I speak of that trauma in my memoir, You Have Such a Pretty Face, but it is still something I have difficulty discussing with anyone except my...
I remember waking up that one morning angry, shaking, and crying because the night before I had just swallowed a whole bottle of pills. I wanted the pain and darkness to end. I was tired of living Groundhog Day over and over. Why was life so hurtful? Why were people so mean? I was such a good person. I was kind,...
The first question I'm asked when people see my before and after picture is "how did you lose the weight?" The question of how I gained the weight is way too touchy of a subject. Or so people think. The story of my weight gain starts with a big fat diagnosis of postpartum depression. I remember being in the hospital after...